Month: August 2010

I thought it was me. I just wasnt used to this type of dating. I thought maybe this time it would be different. and real. and I wasnt going to end up being the girl that gets left in the wind while the boy I like chases after another girl. Boy was I wrong.

I think the hardest part about being broken is getting broken over and over again. I have this ridiculous faith that one day, maybe, JUST maybe someone isnt going to do this to me. That one day I’m not going to take second to someone you want/cant have. You would think that I would learn. Close myself off to being hurt over and over again. Close myself off to being used over and over again. But I just keep thinking, this time it’s going to be different. Suprise. It’s never different. And then I’m just broken all over again.

So I get it. It’s not me. I cant be her which apparently makes me not worth the effort. Fine. I just wish you could see how amazing I am.

Its been way too long since I’ve written on here.. no fear its time to start back!Since no one! (except my big and Momma J) read this I think this counts as a safe place to say what I’m thinking!

Quick catch up to my life today!! Its already the bottom half of 2010!! I graduated!!! I got a real job with the Texas Rangers! I cant even believe thats what I get to do! It’s so much fun I love it! Everyone there is super nice! Anyways no fear, I’m still going to law school I’m just putting it off for a few years! No one wants a 25 year old lawyer.. they’re not trustworthy lol, not that laywers at any age ARE trustworthy..  soo more or less I’m a 22 year old college graduate, single, on a diet, working out with a trainer, and I have an amazing job.. life could be worse

I’m getting up in the morning to go get boxes from hobby lobby to make my sorority family care packages for rush so it’s time for bed but I promise this is the start to a loong line of blogging from this girl ❤ get ready!

Love.